Hey little one,
Your dad and I went out the other night and had so much fun, but I thought of you the whole time. I no longer cry every time I think about you. Mostly I just think about how big you’d be or what happens in the week I was supposed to be in with you. This week has been hard because most women start to feel their little one’s move this week. I was so looking forward to that first little wiggle.. I miss you so much. I miss talking to you in the car on my way to work. Singing to you every day to and from work was my favorite time of day. I know that you’re being taken care of by some one so much greater than me now and that you got to meet your siblings. One of the biggest things I was looking forward to was teaching you all about him, but now I guess I don’t have to.
I want you to know that I wish I could have protected you the way I wanted to. I know now that I didn’t have any control over what happened, but I find myself constantly bargaining to have some kind of control back, to have to ability to save you though its too late now.
Since I can’t teach you about Earth I want to teach you about heaven, so here are some things I think you’ll love t0 do. First there are some hugs you should pass out to your Grandma Cenita, Grandpa Great, and Uncle Riley. Never forget to take some time out to soak up some sun. You didn’t ever get the chance to find out, but down here it gets hard to find the time. I know you want for nothing there back with the one who gave you to me. Lastly though, don’t forget to look over your dad and I.
I can’t wait to meet you someday long from now, but until then I’ll miss you down here and love you from afar.
I love you so much and I always will,